so much for studying today, and i really wish i was home for mothers day :(
I haven’t been able to sleep a single night so far this week. If i have managed to go to sleep at a reasonable time (which in this case seems to be anywhere from 2-4 am) i’m constantly waking up, either every hour, or every half hour. My sleep schedule is fucking me up, and i’d really like it to go back to normal, but shit keeps happening that keeps me up at night thinking. and when i’m not thinking, i’m being distracted by other stuff that still keeps me thinking.
i’m gonna have the darkest, heaviest bags under my eyes by the end of the week. Michael Kors, eat your heart out.
Probably the textbook term for them, but i like to call them “shit that will always make me happy no matter how shitty of a mood i’m in”:
- singing super loudly no matter how shitty i sound
- dancing like an idiot to songs i like in my bathroom
- taking long hot baths even though i don’t fit in the tub
- finding and bookmarking recipes that i’ll probably never make
- watching youtube videos of people singing or just talking about their day
- finding covers on youtube and then trying to learn how to cover the songs myself
- making wishlists of clothes that i’ll probably never buy/never be able to afford
- reading different horoscopes that i find online/analyzing my dreams
when i can’t sleep at night because of whatever anxieties i might have, or worries that i might have, or stress that seems to consume me, these are the things that bring me back to my center. these are the things that keep me from going absolutely insane when i feel like i’m losing all control of my current situation. it’s nice to escape for a little while through whatever works for you, and afterwards, just as i do, i’m sure you’ll feel just as refreshed and ready to concur your day :)
